Cadia - Trust In Me Now
Naima (aka "Dr. Nay")
April 16, 2008

Once in a while you hear a song that speaks to your heart, right at the point of your need. When you encounter a song that tells your personal story at that exact moment, you know that God is real and He is concerned about you. I’ve never been one to readily share the dramas of my personal life, although as a writer and artist I find that I often have to lay the broken pieces of my life bare before the public so that they can find what they need from the Lord through the experiences He has chosen to bless me with. The painful ones, the joyful ones and the ones that make me throw up my hands and wonder if it is all worth it.

Cadia’s Trust In Me Now is such a song for me, one that describes my life at this exact moment. Which as you can imagine makes it hard to write this month’s devotional. It’s as if this song is echoing the voice of the Lord calling down from heaven to me and only me to, “Trust In Me Now”, despite how I feel and what life looks like. People often assume that the life of an artist who is blessed to pursue her dream fulltime touring and recording must be super, glamorous and exciting. But the truth of the matter is that the road is often lonely. There are times when I must travel great distances by myself, sometimes finances are tight and I don’t know if I am going to make the month’s budget. Often I have to miss activities at my church, fellowship with my friends and it seems that I just can’t do what everyone else gets to do, or go where they get to go. The life of a full time Christian recording artist can be difficult. In my thirties I am still single, live over 600 miles from every family member I have, and sometimes find my self in such a state of despair that I don’t even want to function…

That’s why when I heard Trust In Me Now it made such an impact on my life. To know that even though I feel alone, even though my faith is lost and my strength gone, Christ is right there calling me to trust Him, since He has never left me and is holding me despite my pain. My favorite part of the song is the line that screams the truth, “I can see what you can’t see, I will hold you next to me…” I know that the Lord sees the bigger picture of my life, that my life is in His hands and my pains and loneliness are only for a season, in some way these trials are shaping me so that I can be the woman, the artist, the minister, the daughter of God, that He desires me to be.

When I think of those powerful lyrics my heart is lifted, my weary heart that is trying to hold on and finding it hard to trust, is shored up to continue to do the work the Lord has called me to do and to do it cheerfully. The most important line in the entire song is the answer to the question we all ask so many times. “Even if it’s hard to trust in a love that let’s the rain fall down, Trust In Me Now.” It is true, the Lord does let the rain fall down, and sometimes as we get wet, we get discouraged and doubt His love. How could He love me and allow me to feel so utterly alone, so broken and so tired?

What I’ve come to discover and what I would share with you, is that the rain falls down so that you can hide under the umbrella of His grace. Find hope in the love that never fails; trust that even when you can’t see of feel Him, He’s right there. Standing in the rain is an exercise in building our faith, we can run away and have weak faith or we can stand and embrace the rain and know that when the Son begins to shine all things will be made bright and beautiful.

Although at this moment in time life is difficult for me and I find it hard to hold on, I personally will heed Cadia’s call, for it is the call of the Lord, “Trust In Me Now.” I will respond in an attitude of prayer and faith, “Lord I’m trusting in you no matter how it feels.”

Will you heed the call of the Lord? Trust in Him now, because although it seems dark and no relief is in sight, trusting in the Lord will carry you over the pain and heartbreak of this season. He’s calling you, do you hear Him? He’s standing with arms open wide saying, “Trust In Me Now.”

Blessings to you until next time!

Dr. Nay

As always I’d love to hear your comments or questions. Email me at naimasbrokenbox@yahoo.com. And check me out on Shout Life at www.shoutlife.com/Naima.